uhuh uhuh go gramps!!

what i learnt in drama class! haha

it's a longing for a human being to know that someone cares for them in this world


words define us, love connects us.


feelings lie


why can't i just be myself?take me out of here.somewhere where i can be me and free




i hate huge changes . it breaks me apart roughly . breaking down just makes things worst

every sentence i wrote in my personal essay speaks of the inner me

missing friends, my past life, mr right just gets further and more unreachable each day.who to trust is a huge complication. to have someone who thinks about you and has a place for you in their hearts is such a great form of acception. changes are inevitable. staying strong is a must. meeting new people in this world is a blessing. meeting/knowing people who loves you is magic. reassurance is needed to make one's heart be free always.


i hate going through everyday missing people.but silence gives me a chance to talk to God. i know my family is by myside.

appreciation, respect and kindness = i learned a bit of the true meaning of these words.especially *appreciation* i wanna thank him for that. i am so blessed to get to know another new person in this world although he lives half way across the world. i think he doesnt have any idea how he influenced me. a friend? a fan? no a blessing .

* i hope i can be the one people can turn to *
[esp to the people i know]

i know i know haha.ive never *loved a guy* [n vice-versa] duh bt i do know how to love others :)

again ~ fadhlina fariza beverly suhaialah samantha keshia kim melody povan sonia nicholas chong zheng pranav and sean michael.

it's not everyday i thank you guys but oh well i do appreciate all :) and i saved time to think each day.

great bunch of people!




~still broken but getting back [connecting...]

,ChRiStY M.

for fadhlina :)

fadhlina's bdae

well today was great.in sch i just kept thinking of singapore.missed singapore sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.haha.today i went to surprise fadhlina.i came to her block and said he fadhlina,i asked someone to send u my birthday gift to u.n she was like who? who? then i popped by her door.haha she told me she was shocked. gave her my present n mum's.she gave me a cake :) i only got 5 min so i just went to surprise her n go.my mum din believe me until fadhlina talked to her.heard the dweebs called her too.haha.my mum was like "she is shocked to see you.so nice of u.good gal" haha.

my appreciation for fadhlina!! hehe.

-2 diff countries
-diff race
-diff religion
-diff background
-diff individuals

so what? we are able to put our differences aside and give to each other,knowledge of friendship. miraculous :)
[this also goes out to all my other great friends listed :) ]


im coming here again 1st FEB! haha.SEASAC basketball.we're staying at peninsula.what the heck??!! haha


C to the H to the R I S. T to the I to the N to the A.CHRIISSSSTINA CHRISSSSTINA! :)

my bad.hehe just playin. F-A-D-H-L-I-N-A!! happy birthday! hava great one

boys

man my new friends at BIS well yeah um haha ask me bout boys n stuff.gals there do talk bout boys.heapzz.haha.im like im not intersted in any coz i just dun pay attention to them.still tryna deal with the fact that i moved here.i dunno.talkin bout proms n stuff.honestly i dun rilly care who i go with haha.n so far well i dunno but uh last time we gals used to talk a bit bout boys u know.haah but nw i dunno just too preoccupied.ofcourse im nt turning lesbian or smth ahah.soma u guys still remember what i said during the sleepover at bev's room rite? ahah "boys..._ ____ boys."!! haha.for real.no worries.see how things go with me .i got so much work to catch up so stressed.13 pages of history questions! n 1 question kinda like takes up half a page??!! man n iits only history.dun get me started on science n math!.i miss my friends again.n ppl in sch r like whos sean michael?? i mean i din sae nth but the pic was "duhly" in my phone n they saw it.some even thought he was my bf?man.hah.n they dun believe it when i said hes nt.haha.whatever.i hope they dun disturb him or smth.esp my cousin!! DJ!damn.

too cool being cool

~Christina Michaels is way cool.haha :P


irreplacable

basketball much

i got into the seasac basketball team.we won our first game aainst JIS haha.43-28.well i cant write much now.my finger hurts haha.sprained it.its all swollen and purple.im in the top class for bio chem n physics.2nd class for math hehe.ou n the seasec is u18.its cool.the girls are very nice :) my finger has g2 get better.so hard to catch the ball.yesterday i played with an injured finger,everytime i catched the ball im like amen.haha.God help me.haha.so painful.i cant wait to go to singapore and see ppl :)!!!!! hehe.well things r getting a lot better here at BIS.my sports helped me a lot.im suffering in german ofcourse.i have to see my friends.dun rilly have anyone to talk to.n sean is like becoming history.i dunno i think he is really busy.well hope he does well nyway.hard working guys are awesome! hear that? AWESOME ahha.well i still have n never had ny guys in my life.just friends n crushes(nt many)..i got a prom nite a BIS.u can only go with friends or boys from the sch.wata freak is that.haah i think itll be beta if u go with the guy u desire.ahah.(thats nt for me fyi) dun like nyone in BIS.nt so friendly.well there are some nice ones but..hmm.ahah.dunno.lets seeeee... :)

my birthday cake! well one of them :) hehe.they both look so happy

still going on but not too strong

sch again tmr.had a great time in singapore with my TRUE friends.hope they all had fun.i sure did.just by seeing them.now i gotta get used to having friends just to hang around with.nt the ones i can tell secrets n stuff.oh well.im fine with that. I HOPE :) just concentrate on my work.mr sean is nt even replying! haha.dun blame him though.busy guy.ill just keep em in my prayers eventhough he has no idea.sure ill keep my friends in prayer too.hope everyones happy.then ill be happy :) least ill try to.hope more companies will take sean,netballers do their best in their coms and soccer boys,cz n dexter.

God Bless you all.

man im goina sch tmr

i just got my uniform when i landed.it's horrible!! arg.light blue and navy blue below.so freakin nerdy haha! cant wait to see my friends on sat and next sat but ms FAREEEEZA cant come :(..boohoo.i think i invited 40. hehe.today at the airport i wore the most uncomfortable shoes EVER! i cant tell y in this post bt ill tell u guys in my party :) hehe.oh n b4 the screening thing i figured out i got a 50c coin in my jeans so i took it out n places it on the table next to the screening thing so after that i could take it.once i placed it there some nut case took it n said i think this is mine.im like no thats mine foo ! haha bt i din say that i just lifted up my eyebrows n walked away.haha.too lazy to get it back.only 50c man.wazzup with thhaaat!!?? my mind's like oh no im going to sch haa.n n am i ever goina see sean again?haha.its more like my mum who found a frien(sean's mum) than i did.the kid's more busy than his parents i think.picking them up n dropping them off places n driving himself to his acting class.man! sucha tiring life.bt he works hard.nw i know y he replies short emails n dun remember suma the ppl who sent him those emails.bt surprisingly he remembered mine since aug.haah about sports sch,netball n stuff.quite impressive.heard it's hard getting a role in movies.like smth they go for a chinese guy or an asian guy bt hardly any roles for half filipino.so its hard but i dunno.he is the most impressive guy ive ever met.he respects n appreciates ppl a lot.rare with BOYS these days. :) oh well least i found a mr right but not my mr.right YET :( (sarcasm)heard my overly exciting sch has ppl smoking,takin drugs and getting drunk alot.whoopee for me.good luck finding bitchy friends! n all i see in the sch book was swimming..swimming.man i hate swimming.n plus i heard from 3 of my cousins..beware of dis dis dis person im like what?haha im gettin warned b4 i even go to the sch.dang thats harsh.wait till i switch sch in aug again!! even more drunk haha. drunk of trusting ppl that is.i gotta go singapore more often.where the true friends are---- hehe :) okokok i better stop criticizng my new sch b4 even entering it haha.oh bt they have netball (as a SOCIAL activity..pfft! that reeks!) think am goina do baddy n bball. dear God please bless me with good people in this world.n i thank you for the ones i already have. amen :)

to,
sean michael : you made a great start for me this year
fadhlina: you are reliable
fariza:you are noisy hahaahah kidding.i am comfy around you :)
sam: nice to talk to and a great person who responds well hehe
su: its gd u let ur thoughts out.very helpful n funa talk 2
kesh: haha the funny one.a joy to be around with
bev: =love :) feel great around u


oh ya i 4gt mr rajan called me today.so nice of em.n my mum has been using my phone haha without me knowing so ..wierd much! haha yay my singapore number is working again.bt its not with me.im using my indo number.my U.S number is still ok bt duh who da hell wana msg my U.S number.(maybe sean or his mum ehheeh shh)


im 16 bt they put me in grade 9 (U.S),year 10 (brit) damn it! sec 3 for 5 mths agn.stupid policy! haha who cares.more time as a youngster.it's nt like my abilities are ehem k??!!! different system n policy doesnt allow me to skip half a year due to exams in may :) but i did hella passed my eng well n science farely.duh i failed math.the only question i did was matrices and log.haah log was SO easy.the rest i dunno whata hell of a topic they asked haha.

----nrevous nervous nervous GBU all!------

I'll miss this moment A LOT!! i'll think about it everyday. :( till we meet again this year ! hehe.

i cant explain this feeling of joy!

Haha.i met sean finally.he is soo tall n thinner than I thought he was.the picture is on friendster. He gave me chocolates and a pic of him with his autograph haha.funny.he’s nice.he’s got his own funny style.his mum is real nice too.guessing she’s a really good mother I mean for a son like that it’s impressive seeing em turn out well.not arrogant at all.when he talks, he luks at me nodds,look away n look at me again n nodss,ends with a smile haha. He is very polite and he told me what he does in his classes.now taking a break from school 4 a year! Wow.haha nice life huh? It was so funny.we laughed and stuff.nicholas was so talkative.he n nicholas has some things in common.with how they tuck their lips in and keeps NODDING with a smile after everything he says ahha.sean is nice J .he wrote,

To Christina, John Nicholas and Ryan,
my awesome friends and fans,
your support and kindness is a blessing!
God bless you!

Sean michael

He is a nice guy,hope for the best for him in the future.so glad to know another great person in this world,least I hope so.my mum got a long great with his mum 2.he’s going to asia this year.maybe for a month to learn his language and practise it’s martial arts.might drop by indonesia.can show em around again haha.or maybe to singapore cuz his mum liked singapore J ..i’ll bring em to sss with me if he’s in town aite guys? Haha.now I so dunwanna go to school! Arg! Haha.study again damn it.but I promised so I gotto.

16 year old girl,very happy.Thank you God for blessing this day and introducing another great person in this world.appreciate it LOADS J . May God bless you all


Christy Michael-----out----J

birthday :(

man what a day im so sad.sean replied n his mum called me i didnt have my sim it was with my dad.man.i was like hitting my head repeatedly haha.such a waste he couldve made it today at my birthday DINNER! arg stupid christy.maybe tmr at disneyland or another dinner.we got the wrong restaurant just now.pfft.wat a day.n i din socialize much with my cousins.not that close.so kinda bored on my own birthday.boohoo 4 me.was imagining talkina sean or my buddies in singapore.sigh.such a screwed day.so saddddddddddddddddddddddd. :(..i wana go home

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1 day before im 16

well tmr's the dinner.30 over ppl r invited by my parents.n i think i only know 10 of those who are coming.haha.well nt the ideal birthday i wanted but its ok.got company so its great! he hasnt logged in in like forever! ill be upset if he doesnt contact me if smth pops up that day.wanted to invite him to tmr's dinner so i got someone to talk to.bet tmr it wont feel very much like my bdae.coz 60 % of the ppl cumin r like almost strangers to me.but NOOO.he hasnt checked.if he like doesnt contact me way after the 4th. he is HISTORY.ill never wanna contact him again.even if he says sorry (days after the 4th) i mean dude,u got my number tell me if u cant come or smth.dun be all quiet on me man.haha.but i sure hope he remembered!!..see what kinda guy he is.i dunwanna have doubts now coz its nt the day YET.i cant wait to see my true buddies in singapore.just seeing them is like the best birthday present :)i just so wanna go there.so nervous bout BIS.in my mind its like "stupid sch i dunwanna go there" but i gotta force myself n think POSITIVE! hehe.sighhhhhh!

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